Struggling

I have been struggling lately with knowing when to expect right and wrong from others.  I guess that I just expect it from certain people, you automatically think that those who follow Jesus are going to do right by you or at least try, but unfortunately it doesnt always work out that way, and I find it difficult to explain this to the kids, it is soo much easier for them to understand society and how it works, because you know what to expect and you dont get your hopes up for something that never happens. By no means are we perfect, but we do make the efforts to right our wrongs, but at some points we do have to wipe our hands clean and lead our lives so that we do not hurt anymore. You at some point have to protect yourself from the dissappointment. And that makes me very sad for not only myself but for my kids. Stepping up and making the effort to mend broken relationships to no avail is very disappointing. But what it does boil down to is that when you get right down to it the only person that you can rely on is yourself and GOD.  So I am making a promise to myself today that I will do my best to not make idle promises and I will always try my hardest to do right no matter how hard it is, in the last few months that I worked I was asked to comprimise my morals as a healthcare worker and to do what I believe was truely wrong by a patient, and although it was not a popular decision by administration or for monies by the facility I did what was right by the patient and by GOD and what I would have wanted for my family member and although it didnt make me a popular employee I fealt at peace  with my decision and I also fealt right with GOD. That is the kind of decisions I need to always make and follow through with. I am not good at alot of things in life, I am horrible with money, I am horrible at decorating, I am horrible at showing emotion, I am horrible at painting, I am horrible at getting up early, I am horrible at keeping a clean house, I am horrible at alot of things, Sometimes I really dont know what I am good for, but I promise to Love my kids more than anything in this world till the day I die, and I promise to always try to do right by God!!